My blog has been receiving more hits than ever of late. While I have a rudimentary counter, I do not use tracking software – you are all safe. It does raise the question of who am I writing for and as the hits mount I feel a strange need to write for those who honor me by actually reading my thoughts.
These thoughts have been around for a while, but a few minutes ago they took on another dimension. An e-mail from a friend telling me of an on-line article in About.com from Tuesday, June 6th.
The article lists the top bi blogs – I am not sure they are in any order but I weigh in at number four, which considering numbers 2 and 3 have not posted in a while is pretty good. Considering many of your blogs, I do not have a clue why I am on this list and other members of our community are not.
I admit to some mixed emotions – a bit of OMFG coupled with WOW. I feel a need to tell KA – honey I don’t have an STD but…. My narcissism is bursting with pride. My wife has always said that anyone who knows me would immediately connect the dots that litter my blog and of late I have been leaving even more dots – crumbs to find as my therapist would say.
My feeling has always been that if someone I know is trolling bi-sexual / gay blogs and finds me, I am guessing they are not here on a research project. But people love to talk and there is risk here – I am not ready to tell the world this any more than I would go to work and say I had really hot sex with my wife last night.
Only time will tell if I can continue to write without self censoring – I suspect I can. Okay - I know I can - reality has not so much changed as been confirmed: lots of people I do not know click on my blog.
I really had some things on my mind today, but that will be for the next post. It is strange – I am out to four people I know and I am in a strange way now out to the whole world. At work they always tease me I should write a book and I tease back maybe I will – and these are people who have no idea of this aspect of me. If my blog is my book, I now have the quote for the dust jacket.