I was going to read other blogs and not post, but after checking out some old posts on perfekt dad, I had direction. We have opposite guilt reactions - Even though I would never cheat on my wife with another woman (not that I don't have the desire on occasion), I feel guilty thinking about it. Somehow masturbating with another women in my mind feels like cheating - there is nothing I can be doing that I could not do with my wife.
I justify myself to thinking about other men without guilt as being acts she could not help with. I appreciate that the reasoning is fallacious at best and solely an attempt to avoid feeling guilty while giving myself pleasure.
This leads to another topic, but will do as a separate post.